In my recent post I shared that I was feeling blocked from God and unsure why with a few theories in mind. Today I want to share with you where I am now with how I'm feeling and what I have been doing daily to get to know God and Jesus and how it has been helping me.
Ever since the last post I have been reading a Devotional from the amazing television show The Chosen, If you haven't watched it I highly recommended it. It restores my faith each time I watch an episode and I feel a lot closer to understanding Jesus and his Disciples and I feel like I can actually relate to them.
So, each morning I have been reading the devotional or at least try to do it first thing in the morning, regardless I fit this in to my day even if it wasn't in the morning. I did happen to miss one day but that's okay I just picked it up the next day and gave myself grace.
After I'm done reading it, I write a prayer of my own (sometimes I have said it out loud) and the prayer they have in the book and then write my answers in my notebook to the 3 questions they have at the end of each chapter.
Which I have been enjoying since I love to think and write out my own beliefs and my own understanding of what I had just read, it's like my own personal book club with Jesus. (That may have sound corny Haha)
Then after I have read my devotional I take a moment to read the Bible, I am currently at Exodus 28:37.
Doing this has been helping me get closer to God and learning more about him and Jesus. It also sets my day better when I start out with it first thing when I get up. I did notice a big change when one of the days I had forgotten to do my Prayer Focus that my whole day felt a little off and I felt more stressed and tense, I didn't really know why until I remembered. It made me realize that doing the Prayer Focus really centers me and I'm not as stressed throughout the day and reminds me that God and Jesus are in my corner.
Note: When I am doing my Prayer Focus I like to have my phone away from me or not have it easily accessible like putting it in my office drawer or in another room so I can stay a hundred percent focused on my time with God.
So why am I telling you all this?
Maybe this is what you need to add into your life as well or in case you're in the same boat as me or just needing some ideas on how to devote yourself to God. Now I know many will say go to Church to have a better relationship with him and I bet they are right! But for me right now in how I am feeling, I'm not ready to take that step just yet and I believe there is a reason for that. I used to say "I will never go to Church" Because of the many reasons that I won't get into in this post. But I have thought about going and maybe I will someday but what I am trying to say is don't let people push you into doing something you are not ready for even if they think you should or even if they judge you. God has a timing for everything for a reason and so I would trust him with that.
You are probably wondering if I still feel blocked and the answer is kind of. Why kind of?
It's because I feel a little less blocked then I had before but a part of it is still there. I really think it's a test or maybe it is because I need to go to church who knows what the answer is right now but all I know is that he is getting my heart ready for the next step I need to take and I have been craving to learn more and a craving to live through Gods plan for me and I feel a big shift is coming soon, a positive one!
Do you do a Prayer Focus each day or at least every so often?
If so, How as it impacted you and what have you learned from it?
If you want to share, Please Write it in the comments!
Hope this has added Value to you in some way!
Reminder: That this blog and these posts are my own opinion, beliefs and journey and you don't have to apply anything that I have shared. I am just sharing what I have and am experiencing.